March 2010
22 posts
Back To The Place Where Your Soul Had Died.
And the silence, it became so very clear That you had long ago disappeared And I cursed myself for being surprised That this didn’t play like it did in my mind
As I chased the end of your road ‘Cause I’ve still got miles to go
And everyone you meet all seem to be asleep And you wonder if you’re missing your dream
Then it started getting dark And I trudged back to where...
To our beloved MoE...
“You’ve got some kind of nerve, taking all I want”
Talk.
Some updates on life:
Music For Good was great! And thank God that we managed to raise $71XX for Habitat For Humanity after guilt tripping people into donating money, and scamming aunties who were looking for water bottles. Kidding. None of that happened, I swear. And I realized I need to spend more time with certain people. Seems like everyone’s going missing.
Glad that Alexis, Man Fung,...
Going Out of My Mind.
In my dreams, I’m dying all the time, As I awake its kaleidoscopic mind.
No Cause For Concern.
But time is on your side It’s on your side now Not pushing you down, and all around; It’s no cause for concern
And I see no chance of release, And I know I’m dead on the surface, But I’m screaming underneath
Stood on the edge, tied to a noose, But you came along and you cut me loose
If I, if I’d only waited, I’d not be stuck here in this hole.
“And if we seem nutty to you and if we seem like an odd ball to you, just...”
– Deathcab For Cutie - Amputations
Tired From Thinking.
Been finding out more about my schoolmates via various means (haha) recently. And slowly I’m beginning to realize that there’s definitely more to some of them than meets the eye; the stories behind each person, each smile, each ‘hello’ have in one way or another piqued my interest. I sound like some stalker, I know, but to be honest, I’m glad that they’re not as...
Swaying.
So the holidays have ended.
Ok, to be precise, they’re ending in about 1 hour. Ok, to be more precise, I think one week of holidays is pathetic and doesn’t deserve to be called a holiday.
Anyway, school’s starting again tomorrow, and Term 2 had better not be a *****. Who am I kidding? Term 1 sucked, and Term 2 will definitely have its fair share of crap. Just praying that...
Technicolor Boys; Transistor, Radio.
So recently I”ve been thinking about what I’m doing with my life, and how I’m doing.
How is your life?
Colin Ng
Academics: Average/Below Average
Spiritual: Not too good
Result: Mediocre
So much for ‘Rising Above The Level of Mediocrity’, haha. Hate those secondary school visions. But honestly, looking at my life, all the insecurity that tells me I’m not...
Time For Tomorrow.
It’s 2.30am and I’m still awake, screwing myself up and bringing everyone else around with me. Too much thoughts, and too much heaviness in each thought.
Time for tomorrow.
And so I’ve realized everyone moves on sooner or later. About time for me to start too.
And if my heart was dying that fast, Then I’d have done the same as you.
Still waiting, though I still have my doubts.
Today I,
went for service
tried not to fall asleep in service
went out for lunch with the GoP people
went to play lan with Gaius, Grace, Ah Nan, June and Gidsy
went back to church
ping-ponged
watched Uncle Simon and Uncle Wilfred battle it out
went back to Katong (addict) to play pool
went for dinner at Astons
went back to church (addict)
watched the Music For Good Musical Rehearsal
...
I’m still inside here; A little bit comes bleeding through
Wish there could have been any other way, But I just don’t know what else I can do
Statues.
You and I were two old and tortured souls, Repaired by a love of broken things In a life, just some bodies growing old, No fear of the end of anything
We got by though we never needed much, A sliver of hope, no diamond rings We got high, it was heaven, it was hell, Flying over them with broken wings
Our bones forever in stone, Monuments of life To dust as everything must, We fade away in time
...
In Catching A Breath.
“I’m hanging on another day, just to see what You’ll throw my way.”
Life is so exciting! (desperate attempt to think postively)
Even though I’m falling apart, even though I’m barely breathing,
I’m still holding on to You.
Technicolor.
And as they all grow older the truth will be understood, cause we never turn out the way we thought we would.
Life of a Saint, Day 29
It’s been more than a month since I started school in SAJC!
School is not all bad I guess. Mostly bad, but there’re some good parts too.
I decided to go for morning worship today, and surprisingly it wasn’t bad at all. I think I’ll be attending it quite regularly in the future (provided I can wake up on time). Saw Joel and Clara at the worship session (didn’t know...
